Category Archives: Trauma

Am I Crazy? Hallucinations, Delusions or Consensual Reality

Posted on November 4, 2012 by

What is real? Is anything true and factual? Or are we all just deluded and mad as hatters? This is a serious question. What I recall and what was written down in my chart about a certain four days in … Continue reading →

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Natchaug Hospital and Trauma-related artwork (plus…)

Posted on September 4, 2012 by

     

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Open Letter to Deborah Weidner, MD, Chief Medical Officer, of Natchaug Hospital

Posted on September 2, 2012 by

It has been a week since my discharge from the Adult Unit at Natchaug Hospital. After a week of recuperation and stabilization at home I feel compelled to write you via the open forum of a letter on this blog. It may … Continue reading →

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Mental Hospital: Psychiatric “Treatment” and Abuse II (Continued)

Posted on July 23, 2012 by

I was admitted last Tuesday night, the 17th of July I believe it was, to the Institute of Living, the psychiatric division of Hartford Hospital in central Connecticut. I do not remember this. The fact that I have amnesia for it and … Continue reading →

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More Psychiatric Abuse in Mental Hospital and Emergency Room

Posted on July 21, 2012 by

I admit I was angry. I admit I was loud and irritable. I admit that I may have been perceived as “difficult.” But never once did I make a verbal or gestural threat or even so much as stand on … Continue reading →

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Psychiatric Crisis Intervention: How to Avoid Restraints and Violence

Posted on June 16, 2012 by

  *Note that when I write of a psychiatric crisis, I mean a patient who is not actively on street drugs. I cannot speak to any situation where someone has been taking unknown quantities of unknown chemicals. In such a … Continue reading →

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“The Scream” plus an update…

Posted on June 6, 2012 by

   In the midst of re-experiencing trauma, sometimes all you can do is scream, even if it is silently and only in paint…I hope this speaks to some of you who may feel as I do, often or even just … Continue reading →

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Different kind of artwork for me: Car Picture for Tim

Posted on May 16, 2012 by

Okay, this is for the boys! _____________________________________________________ Some sad news that I only feel able to share now, is that  I had to put my beloved cat of 17 years to sleep on Friday last…and it was truly awful. I … Continue reading →

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Useless Psychiatric Mediation and a Poem

Posted on May 15, 2012 by

(Before I write this blog entry, I want to send this message:To certain people from Middlesex Hospital who read this and are following developments in my case against you please be aware that I know who you are and I … Continue reading →

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Shock Treatment/ ECT – Therapy or Torture?

Posted on April 8, 2012 by

Although most of this post was written and posted back in 2011, I have both edited it and written an addendum, especially for the students in Holly C’s course, with whom I will be doing a Skype class on Monday. … Continue reading →

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Hospital Abuses: Psychiatry and Authority

Posted on April 1, 2012 by

Stay away from this hospital’s psychiatric unit! Most of what follows below is a cut and paste from past blog posts, plus the latest update, but I wanted to do so in order that newer readers would understand where all … Continue reading →

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In-Patient Psychiatric Abuse Can Be Subtle (and not so)

Posted on January 14, 2012 by

I will be rewriting this for my new memoir, but wanted to try out the episode here, in part, though I have not yet rewritten it…I have been rereading my many journals that I have retrieved from storage in preparation … Continue reading →

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Trauma: Exposure Therapy or Salt on Wound?

Posted on November 24, 2011 by

Caveat Lector or Warning to the Reader: Although it is only 10:30pm, I seem to be falling into dreamtalk as I write this…I must be sleepier than I know, and half asleep or falling asleep every so often as  I … Continue reading →

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Psychiatry and Authority: Restraints Update

Posted on October 7, 2011 by

      I want to update my “On Psychiatry and Authority” post, especially about what they did to me at “MIddlesex Hospital, which I can now do with more accurate data. I gleaned a lot of the following directly … Continue reading →

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Trauma and Acceptance

Posted on October 4, 2011 by

  These past several weeks have been pure hell for me. In fact, despite some of my “up” posts, these past 18 months have been hell. I have found it nearly impossible to move beyond my experience and the trauma … Continue reading →

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